Part II: Love Lost. An Analysis of Last Love

Before I begin Part II was this book, there is something I should probably explain about the story you just finished. When I originally wrote the book, the first chapter and the last few pages of the book contained Frank Sinatra song lyrics. Since I didn’t have the money to pay for permission from the copyright holders, I had to remove them. The lyrics were an attempt to tie the beginning and the last half of the book together as a signal that much of what you just read was a death dream. Marilyn was reliving her connection to the Kennedys and how those relationships got her to that point on the evening of August 4, 1962. Much of the first half of the book was meant to be from the perspective of a narrator, given a glimpse of this death dream and trying to make sense of it. The way it was supposed to play out was that the narrator (me) would conduct an investigation on a website and in social media, then ultimately reveal what really happened. That’s what I had planned. What happened in real life didn’t work out that way at all.

I published the Last Love short story on February 14, 2017. It was meant as a Valentine for Marilyn fans. The response turned out to be like a grade school kid who goes to school on Valentines Day with a card for everyone then comes home empty-handed. My story was ignored.

As I said in the introduction to this book, I hoped it would spark debate, at which point I’d clarify and explain the story in a series of web posts on the site NormaJeane.xyz. I spent six months on Twitter promoting the book and couldn’t get a single person to even comment on the book, let alone leave a review or ask questions. I vastly underestimated how leery the Marilyn community is of new claims of ground-breaking discoveries in the Marilyn case. I guess at this point it’s better for them to just ignore new claims as just the ramblings of a crackpot, or the work of yet another sleazy self-promoter out to make a fast buck by exploiting Marilyn’s popularity.

I should have known that would happen. I, like anyone else who has ever seriously considered this case, is highly skeptical of anyone who claims to have definitive answers to what happened on Fifth Helena on the night of August 4, 1962. There are just too many competing scenarios to consider. The most commonly agreed upon conclusion to Marilyn’s death is that she committed suicide. So I thought I’d start with a story that included what now appears to be the most likely answer to the Marilyn mystery, that is, on that fateful Saturday night, Marilyn Monroe deliberately took her own life. She was telling everyone that had ever used, discarded and disappointed her that she had enough.

But what was it that pushed her over the edge? Why on that date and that time in her life, when everything was improving did she decide to die. I spoke earlier about contradictory facts where both appear to be true. One of the major dilemmas in the Marilyn mystery is the following paradox. Both these statement appear to be true:

1) Marilyn was not having an affair with Robert Kennedy, and

2) Marilyn killed herself because Robert Kennedy broke up with her and severed all ties between her and the Kennedy family.

Obviously both statements can’t be true. But do they point to a greater truth? Did she have a deep, meaningful connection with a Kennedy that suddenly ended that night? A positive answer to that question might provide the elusive answer to the greatest Marilyn mystery. Why? Why would Marilyn choose to end her own life?

Perhaps I went wrong by declaring Marilyn’s love for Pat Kennedy Lawford as sexual. I admit it’s a hypothesis without much foundation in verifiable facts. But isn’t that likely to be true in all secret love affairs? Especially one that would have been so socially shocking and inflammatory that disclosure and the public condemnation that followed would have ruined both of their lives, not to mention the effects it would have had on a powerful family and the president of the United States?

Couldn’t this explain why the circumstances surrounding Marilyn’s death had to be kept secret and were never talked about by the Kennedys, Sinatra and DiMaggio. Couldn’t this explain DiMaggio’s hatred for the whole family, and not just the brothers? And also explain why even after appeals from Marilyn’s lawyer and housekeeper, he still barred Pat Kennedy Lawford from the funeral? I believe a strong love between the two woman is more than a possibility, it’s actually a probability. So why make that bond sexual? Do I have any proof? Is there any proof of a sexual relationship between Marilyn Monroe and Pat Kennedy Lawford? To be totally honest, no, there’s not one shred of solid evidence that the two were ever lovers. So, how can I speculate that the two were ever lovers? Because to me it made a lot sense, especially considering all the conflicting evidence I had acquired. It tied together a bunch of loose ends and finally explained why, after so many years and the murders of the brothers, did the Kennedy involvement in Marilyn’s life still have to be kept such a big secret.

I don’t expect you to just accept this conjecture as fact. I’ll try to convince you with evidence. The two main resources that convinced me of the possibility of an affair between MM and PKL are two current and well respected biographies of Marilyn Monroe by Lois Banner and J. Randy Taraborrelli. My assumption of an affair is the result of a “marriage” of information presented in these two bio’s. The first is Banner’s, The Passion and the Paradox. Banner makes a convincing argument for Marilyn’s bisexuality. The second is Taraborrelli’s, The Secret Life of Marilyn Monroe. Taraborrelli reveals, for the first time in any biography, just how close the friendship between Marilyn Monroe and Pat Kennedy Lawford was. Taraborrelli gives us a glimpse of just how intimate the two were by relaying never before offered testimony from one of Pat’s friends, Pat Brennan. I think the most relevant piece of information is in an appendix. It’s in the back of the book where he tells us that Pat Brennan stated the Pat Kennedy Lawford was never the same after the Cal-Neva weekend, and that this time period marked the end of the Lawford marriage.

There are several other “clues” that seem to support my conclusion. It’s been reported that Pat and Peter Lawford slept in separate bedrooms. Even their son Christopher repeats the well worn rumor in his book that his mother made the sign of the cross before sex with his father. It’s said that marriage wasn’t in her nature and that she married and had children because that’s what was expected of Kennedy women. Pat tolerated Peter’s extramarital activities and only balked when one of his trollops had the audacity to call the house. Pat was the first Kennedy to get a divorce, something which was taboo not only in her family but also in her religion. She never remarried after divorcing Peter, and there is no indication that she was ever involved with another man for the rest of her life. I will admit that none of that is proof. The way I presented this affair in Last Love is as a kind of death dream on Marilyn’s part as she drifts off into oblivion. It’s presented as the way she saw the last months unfold. I admit all my “evidence” is in reality a very flimsy foundation to base such an assumption. But it’s something to consider and that was the purpose of Part I of this book, to convince people there is more to the story of Marilyn’s death and that there are new avenues left to investigate.

Rumors that Marilyn was lesbian by nature date back to her lifetime and constitute parts of the earliest conspiracy theories as evidenced by the 1964 FBI file titled “Robert F Kennedy.” We will consider that document later. A statement by Dr. Greenson that Marilyn wasn’t involved with any men at the time of her death may be a clue that she was involved with a women. Ultimately, it may be unimportant if the two women were actual lovers. If Marilyn felt she was being “cut off” from the Kennedy family and that meant losing a dear and valued friend it would have been very upsetting for her. That kind of rejection, especially after being told by Pat, “You’re a Kennedy now,” would have been devastating for someone who all her life longed to be part of a family and who had such adverse reactions to rejection. It would also explain why in her last phone call with Peter Lawford, the first person she wanted to say goodbye to was Pat.

I think this whole issue is important because it speaks to Marilyn’s state of mind on the evening of her death. The purpose of this book is to stimulate discussion about Marilyn’s demise and offer new avenues of investigation. Monroe was an important figure in 20th century history and she deserves better than how her story has devolved over the years. There are untapped clues to the circumstances of her last month which contributed to her death. We will begin to consider those clues by examining two of the seven keys I introduced earlier, the Kennedy Connection, and the Lesbian Rumors.